Sometimes when life gets hard

You need to put an end to what makes life hard at the time and remember to smile and laugh at all the good things that happen in you life!!

THE END :)

Let me vent about HOAs

This is about adoption blog for sure but man nothing chaps my hide more that a group of people who have self appointed themselves over you as and HOA to tell you how you can and can't live in your own home that you are making payments to every month.  I strongly dislike MSI and Lallis Jackson. 

But on a lighter note we just got our passports and little miss is now 3'1'' tall, HOLY MOLY she is going to be a tall girl since they say you are 1/2 the height you will be as a grown adult by age 2 and she doesn't turn 2 until June.

Kisses from CO

Just in case you needed a little kissey face today

The fight

The Night night fight drives me crazy! She is sleepy so sleepy she cannot walk straight but put her in bed and an hour of crying ensues. Not to mention that if she does not have her favorite animals she may not sleep. 

I miss the wee one that would sleep. Not that I am not loving the toddler but sometimes going down without a fight is a GOOD thing.  Ah well someday she will come to know the value of a good nap, when she has kids of her own and needs to get some cleaning done herself!

The things that make you smile...well atleast me

When I was growing up we had a Christmas tree that had this white snow like substance sprayed onto the branches.  My Brother and I would spend many hours playing around this tree hiding our ornaments seeing if the other could find it.  As we got older the tree started to yellow and I could remember the year we threw it out.  I also remember crying because things like that just make me cry.  I HATE to say goodbye to things/people I love.

I hadn't seen another tree like it since the 90s and when we threw that tree out it was a good 15 or so years old.  Until today when while walking around Walmart I saw this.

Now just know this gave me the biggest smile and almost made me cry in walmart...not something that has ever happened although there are times I want to cry that I have to go there, there are just some things that are cheaper there than Target or Kings or Safeway.

Anyway if it were not for the mess the white trees make I may buy this tree, who knows what the white stuff is...in fact it may be pretty toxic but hello childhood I missed you.

And here is my beautiful daughter 

blow it up to get the full joy!

need I say more? Hope you are smiling now :)

Seizures

After Averys first birthday she had an episode of Seizures that the Drs could not explain and it was either one LONG seizure or 3-4 simi long seizures we have had every test done under the sun to try and figure out why.  Even a spinaltap OW! But still no reason why.

She has not had an episode since but every time she spikes a fever we are on seizure watch.  She gets to have tylenol and sleep in our room, although last night she wouldn't sleep while in our room soooo she slept in her crib with the monitor turned WAY up and the seizure meds on hand.

Now my sister used to have seizures when she was little BUT they were never as long as Averys so I am uber cautious, maybe it will get easier someday for mommy and daddy to sleep but for now we are on edge every time a fever happens

What made you smile today?

Today Avery had her first day in nursery at church it both made me smile and cry a little. How did she get so big so fast?

We are filling out adoption paperwork again but not as fast as last time. I know I have more love in my heart for more children and birth parents/family.

What I am struggling with is feeling like I am cheating on Averys birth family while we look at the adoption option again.

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